8 Weeks - Due August 18th

This is the first time I feel like talking about this. We are pregnant again. We found out about 4 weeks ago on the 11th of December. Last week we heard the baby's heartbeat and they confirmed that my due date is August 18th. I was very excited at first. Now I just feel ... in stasis. I guess I figure we have the next 7 1/2 months to get excited again.

It is so encouraging to see Isaac's growing excitement. The first two weeks he didn't really acknowledge the baby. But when we saw the baby's heartbeat, he ate it up and he said, "I want to see our baby again!" Tonight Isaac and I watched a documentary called The Business of Being Born. I think it made us both emotional to see those babies born. It was good and healthy for us to see the end of all this pain and suffering. It is good to know that there will be a baby at the end.

After we heard the heartbeat of our little one, Isaac started praying for it grow strong and healthy. I really need that from him. I kinda feel alone right now. I worry every day that I don't feel pregnant and it has been a long week of not feeling pregnant. Most of my close friends have a lot going on in their lives and I feel like I would be burdening them too much to tell them when I am worried. There will be so many ups and downs to this pregnancy. Who would ever want to ride that roller coaster with me? Most days I don't even tell Isaac how I am worried. I know he can tell anyway without me talking about it. He reads my body language like a book. :)

In conclusion? Here we go again ... Lord, please protect this baby. Please let it grow and let us be able to hold it one day. Isaac and I both want to be parents so much. I see in Isaac how much he wants a child. Give us strength to make it through this year and especially this next month. Thank you for this gift.