I love this age with you! You are mobile and I don't need to carry you constantly anymore. You can go get your own toy or paci. You stand up on everything and I really appreciate that you learned quickly how to get back down again. Every time I see you almost fall, but end up figuring it out in time, I make sure to praise you. It is a relief to see you be smart and safe even as you are taking huge chances. You are so fun to interact with also. You started repeating sounds to me and you play peek-a-boo with a blanket over your head. :) I think you may have even started clapping your hands ... although you do so by grabbing your own hands and moving them up and down excitedly. You will get it soon enough. :) Everyone around loves you and tells me that you are such a cute baby. They love your quick smile. You also give me hugs and kisses and they are so precious to me.
Having said that ... I also don't really like this age. You are into EVERYTHING and you think that I all the things I tell you not to touch are the most desired. I feel like I have brought out the sinner in you by telling you "No, don't touch." The bible says we wouldn't know we were sinners if the law didn't tell us we were. Laws make us want to disobey. And that is really sad. You are very hard to control. You don't believe in boundaries and you don't trust me when I tell you not to touch something. I don't like being so mean and telling you "no" but I have to. One day you will be in danger and you will need to respond right away to me calling you or telling you no.
On the other hand, I am afraid that if I just give you rules all the time that you will grow up trying to be a rule keeper. And that is dangerous too for your heart. Mommy is like this and I am afraid of making you be like me. Our hearts need Jesus and His grace and sacrifice for us. Only Jesus can make us good, not our rules and obedience. I hope that I can communicate this to you as you grow up. You must learn to obey, but your struggle with obedience should always make you need Jesus more.
I am praying for you and I love you very much my willful son!
Your Mommy
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