I am crying. I wish I could tell you all how moved I am right now. Last week, my heart was truly breaking. You can't imagine how hard it is to hear story after story or brokenness and loss. It is really hard.... I feel so much for you and I remember all of the feelings you spoke about. I felt them too ... and sometimes I still do.
But today ... you all blessed me over and over again. With your pictures and thank yous ... I am so moved. I'm so honored by your trust in me and in finding my work beautiful. I can't stop crying.
Who would have thought? 4 years ago when I lost my first baby ... in the midst and messiness of grieving ... I never thought that I could turn around and help others.
I'm sorry I can't stop crying. Just ... thank you ... I am so honored.
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Prayer of Suffering, Wonder and Questions
Lord,
How do you bear it? How can you watch this much pain in the world? How can you feel every part of the brokenness? I know you don't run from it. But I feel buried in two days of broken stories. So many women have lost their children. So many. I feel like a drop in the bucket of pain and suffering. What do I say, Lord? What comfort can I give? How do I process it all? I believe that you are the source of comfort and hope. How do I access it? How can I be a light of hope to glorify you? Lord, won't you come quickly? Will you please be present in the lives I am encountering? Will you give me words ... yours words to speak? Will you use me? Use my nests? Will you please redeem this? Make it new ... all the children's lives ... all of the mothers who are crushed and deeply grieving. Will you make it undone? Take away death and let your life shine in your people?
How can you watch it? How do you not turn away? How can you feel this much and more?
How do you bear it? How can you watch this much pain in the world? How can you feel every part of the brokenness? I know you don't run from it. But I feel buried in two days of broken stories. So many women have lost their children. So many. I feel like a drop in the bucket of pain and suffering. What do I say, Lord? What comfort can I give? How do I process it all? I believe that you are the source of comfort and hope. How do I access it? How can I be a light of hope to glorify you? Lord, won't you come quickly? Will you please be present in the lives I am encountering? Will you give me words ... yours words to speak? Will you use me? Use my nests? Will you please redeem this? Make it new ... all the children's lives ... all of the mothers who are crushed and deeply grieving. Will you make it undone? Take away death and let your life shine in your people?
How can you watch it? How do you not turn away? How can you feel this much and more?
