You are just about 19 months old as I write this post, but I can't seem to write much these days. I'm sorry this is late. You have just exploded verbally in the last 3 months. Right before Anna was born you started saying sounds for animals ... it started out with cows and dogs, but now you can repeat almost any sound or word we ask you to say. Although, you only say it once. You don't like to repeat yourself. :) I keep a running list of things that you say, but I'm struggling to know how to spell them. You have your own unique way of saying every word. This week, you are saying sentences. You didn't put them together by yourself ... you are just copying us, but it is adorable! You say, "Daddy, where are you?" and "Hmmm ... Let's see"
I am very sad today. I haven't loved you like I should and you are frustrated with me. I need to repent to you. I forget that you are a baby still. I think of you as being so much older than you are because we have another tiny baby in the house. I'm sorry. I can't expect you to understand everything and I can't expect you to entertain yourself all day. I am broken. My parenting is broken. Please forgive me. I need Jesus so much and I hope you can always hear me say that as you grow up. You need him too. You are demanding, angry, hurt, and unhappy. I am praying for you every night. I think of how sad it would be if you never know Jesus and never know that he can redeem all of our brokenness. "Lord, heal my relationship with my son and give me wisdom. Give William the ability and desire to forgive me. Give him your son and don't ever let him go."
I love you, Will, even though I need to love you more....
Your Mommy
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