Louisa and Lauren

Where do I start? We found out we were pregnant August 21st. Its been a rough month and a half to say the least. Being pregnant was very stressful. Isaac and I were always conscious of the fact that we could lose the baby any day. We never took it for granted and we thanked God every day.




I started staining at 7 weeks. We knew to prepare for the worst. It was a very long week, but looking back now  I think it made it easier to be prepared. Unlike Michael, whose death surprised us very much. The ultrasound at 7 1/2 weeks confirmed that there were no heartbeats. I say heartbeats because there was were 2 babies. We were having identical twins. For 3 days we prayed for a miracle for these little ones, but 3 days later I went into labor and we knew it was done. That was almost 3 weeks ago....

I'm sorry to all of the people we ignored for the last 3 weeks. I hope you can understand that we just wanted to be alone for a while. But don't worry, we have been taken care of by some very close friends. We aren't a mess and I don't cry very often. This time feels very different to me than the last time did. I think I'll explain later. I just wanted to give you folks some details.

I also want to introduce you to our little darlings that we lost. Their names are Louisa and Lauren. We named them after both of our moms. Louisa after Isaac's Mom (Louise) and Lauren after my Mom (Lori-Ann). Both  of our moms are very godly women that we both admire and appreciate very much. We wanted to honor them both by naming our darlings after them.

I miss all of my babies very much ...